ok, so i am going to use this thing therapeutically. i am over whelmed in my endeavors, marriage, school, finding work, house, animals all this stuff makes the fruit roll that is my life. a sour, bitter tasting, made from rotten tomatoes fruit roll that is jammed down my throat any time i am on the verge of even a breath of happiness. i feel like life is just a series of limited decision where i can pick either a pile of huge, smelly, wet crap or a pile of wet, smelly, huge crap. for as long as i can remember i have been starring at a clock waiting for some dreaded moment to either end or for one to begin. don't get me wrong there are moments where i feel alright, but there just eyes in the storm and they usually consist of some sort of escapist activity, nothing that amounts to a better life only putting off another inevitable episode of rock and a hard place. i know what your thinking "look on the bright side", "just live in the moment", "it can only get better" it's just cheap talk from happy people.