so, been a long time blah blah blah. a lot has happened in my life since my last post and i have been taking for granted the stability of my personnel status quo. so what does that mean for this particular site? don't know, perhaps i will update more often, perhaps i will take it down because it is doing nothing for me or anybody else. the most common experience i have with this site is i type out about half a post and then decide that it is just a depressing rant and never post anything. i react this way because i have been posting for an audience but i have decide to instead use this site as a record of not being lazy. my number one problem is the "lazy".the lazy has followed me around all my life and i am always dogged by it's decimating after effects. so, whats in store for this site in the immediate future is this; i will post daily everything i have been up to so i can create a sense of accountability. as the time between post lengthen i hope that it will be be like a drill on my temple and like biofeedback therapy i will be more aware of my laziness and therefore more apt to control it.