it has been a long time since i have been vexed by sleeplessness. the past two days have been such. the first i laid down and went to sleep though i was not tired i continually woke up threw the night with surprising alertness. the second has been harder hence this journal entry. i just watched into the wild and for those who have not seen it i am going to disclose the end so stop reading.

first i must say that i longed for the supertramp to survive but it is when i don't get what i want from an ending that the movie sticks with me. in many ways it seemed that the movie invalidated his choice of seclusion, there where all the broken hearts he left behind, all of the warnings to remember his family and showing the stark difference between what was and what could have been. yet, to read it as such i think you miss the fact that it was the seclusion that freed him so that he might see the value of humanity. it was a necessary path for him and an example for all those who he met. also, it was only because of unfortunate circumstances that he died. not because of his independence from society. his "early", "premature" death validated his fully lived existences. so, perhaps this is the feel good sleeper of the year .